Self loathing

I get so mad at myself sometimes. I think I must have tourette’s syndrome. I just cannot help myself. I say stupid things.
On Monday, I went to a meeting and said some absolutely awful things. I was so mad! Okay, I won’t say anything stupid on Tuesday. I did. Wednesday I went off the deep end and really stuck both feet into my mouth.

It’s like there is a nasty little man in my head and sometimes I can’t keep him quiet.

So, we keep trying on this one.

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198 lbs.

Okay, I have decided to set a short term goal of dropping below 200 pounds. I have set 198 since 199 is too close and could fluctuate. 198 will show that I have definitely dropped below 200.

That’s 14 pounds. Seven Weeks? June 16th is the day then.

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When the music plays, dance.

I have a friend who just told me they can’t dance. When I was younger I stood on the side and did not dance because I could not dance. When I did dance, I loved it. Then I tried too hard to dance well. It wasn’t fun and people made fun of me. With age, I have learned to dance the way that is fun and feels good.
I love to dance now.

I don’t get a lot of chances to dance any more. My beloved hates to dance and won’t do it and there just aren’t that many opportunities for old farts like myself to get out and dance anyway. But when I have the chance, I dance.

Life is too short to miss it.

So, I say, when the music plays, dance.

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Jungian?

Jung Explorer Test
Actualized type: ESFP
(who you are)

ESFP - "Entertainer". Radiates attractive warmth and optimism. Smooth, witty, charming, clever. Fun to be with. Very generous. 8.5% of the total population.

Preferred type: ESFJ
(who you prefer to be)

ESFJ - "Seller". Most sociable of all types. Nurturer of harmony. Outstanding host or hostesses. 12.3% of total population.

Attraction type: ESFJ

(who you are attracted to)

ESFJ - "Seller". Most sociable of all types. Nurturer of harmony. Outstanding host or hostesses. 12.3% of total population.

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I just got this picture in my email

Why I won’t be celebrating Easter.

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April 6th

Some days have special significance, a major event, anniversary or birthday. Today is of major significance for me for several reasons.

Those of us in the know, know that today is really Christmas. There is much historical evidence to support this but the best source is the revealed word. Interestingly enough, it is also the day Jesus celebrated the last supper and suffered for the sins of all the universe.

Fast forward 1800 years more or less and it is the day the restored Church of Jesus Christ was again organized on the face of the earth.

Go forward another 135 years and today is the birthday of my best friend, Scott. He and I have been close friends since we were kids. We probably exchange a dozen emails a day and I always visit when I go home for things. Scott has always been a true and good friend, always there for me, always saying what I need to hear instead of what I want to hear.

Go forward another 24 years and today is the birthday of my oldest son, Richard. My son is 16 today. I am so proud of him. He is an awesome kid. 16 years ago, I was still in college and we were in the process of moving into an apartment where we would be assistant managers. I had left to return the truck and when I came back, Sue told me her water broke. Holy Cow!!! It started. I have to laugh at how silly I was about the whole thing back then. I was still just a kid myself back then too. Labor was pretty normal up to the point where Richard dropped down but then he stopped. For an hour Sue pushed and Richard would not come. Finally, a wise Dr decided to help things out and he pulled my son into the world at around 4:00 in the morning. My son, my perfect little baby son. He has been a joy and an adventure for 16 years.

April 6th is a great day.

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A Writer Writes

I have no idea what to write about today but as the old saying goes, a writer writes. So here I am writing an entry, more like rambling.

I watched 10 hours of conference this weekend. Each time I watch, I resolve to do better over the next six months. I also resolve to actually read the conference edition of the Ensign a couple of times and decide what areas I need to improve upon. Once again I am resolved to do better, to read the scriptures more, to make a bigger effort to follow the council of the prophet and apostles.